No, I do not remember it, I trashed it. The feeling in my brain is like you holding your breath, staring eyes wide open and not moving. I felt like I had two people talking in my head, one good and one bad. I had to reeled myself in by processing my thoughts of my children as I was looking for the pistol.I remember George Clooney saying back pain after getting injured filming "Syriana" almost drove him to suicide.
If you don't mind me asking do you recall the drugs you were prescribed that caused your issues?