I got this rare form of sickle cell that limits physical work, I can't do labor jobs I will end up in the hospital, thanks for this though. If I didn't have this problem I would have become a trucker but my physical limitations are a problem.
Okay well here's the issue.
I have little education and also of mental issues, my parents can't get along and my dad hates my mom for how my life came out, I have no kids and I'm over 40 so I'm depressed and I know most of my family feels sorry for me. everyone blames my mother for my issues, they say she babied me and controlled my life.
The real issue is I have an issue making money every job I work nothing connects it's never any advancement, it's just either I quit or I get fired and I'm back at square one I have also depression I deal with because I'm always sad.
Looking back at my post history when I spoke politics I kinda leaned my right because I feel they give people like me more cover, lower-income dudes who are black we at least we have each other and we could get something back from each other, I felt the left was too much into class and of course I couldn't play that game at all.
I'm old now I don't know how an old man finishing school competition with 25-year-olds will work in a competitive field like IT or something, maybe a waste of time so I said this probably is the best bet for me, I need to feel better about myself and I will do whatever but I can't stay here in this city living how I live, I try really hard but it's what's on paper and ain't shit really there.
I actually have good credit and drive an old honda that's reliable, with little bills and I never defaulted on my loans but my issue is I can't make money for shit and I'm going crazy. I kinda wanna run away like a teenager and start life over LOL, I really want to do this...
For instance IT, I try hard but I'm still pursuing the CCNA, I took dudes class on BGOL last year July and I never passed it yet it's some much information I'm still grasping everything, I'm all fucked up I don't even know what the fuck to do anymore which is why I just wanna run and leave and if I have to stand by a gate all night in Georgia so be it LOL, I just want to feel better and have direction in my life.
My father had me on the path to go to NYU, he ruled with an iron first but my mom took me and I ended up dropping out and being all fucked up so he hates her to death but no one can help me and I'm kinda tired.
I just want to accept my faith and disappear somewhere no one knows me and just start over, find a way to survive, or just do it. much easier anywhere than Florida where these houses costing 500k on average.
There is a lot to unpack with what you said.
Thanks for sharing. First, with all sincerity, I strongly suggest you seek therapy. Do not look at therapy as a bad thing. We tend to do that. If your arm was broken, you would see a doctor who specializes in bones. The same is true for the mind.
I have little education and also of mental issues,
A person with little education can still be successful. There are numerous jobs available right now. You could easiely grab two of those jobs and be earning $50K. Furthermore, if you wanted to, you could alway change that and jusy go back to school.
More people have mental health issue than you realize. Most people are not willing to admit it. Additionally, mental health can be mitgated.
The real issue is I have an issue making money every job I work nothing connects it's never any advancement, it's just either I quit or I get fired and I'm back at square one I have also depression I deal with because I'm always sad.
This an area of personal improvement you can work on. You are not unusual in that you are an instant gradification person. You have to work on delayed gradification. Additionally, advancement an opportunities are usually created or dictated by your performance with that employer.
I'm old now I don't know how an old man finishing school competition with 25-year-olds will work in a competitive field like IT or something, maybe a waste of time so I said this probably is the best bet for me, I need to feel better about myself and I will do whatever but I can't stay here in this city living how I live, I try really hard but it's what's on paper and ain't shit really there.
I have a really good friend who became a doctor after becoming a grandma. I said that to say, you are your only roadblock. If you want to change careers and gain education in a particular field, then do it Do not worry about everyone else. Do you and do it well. I think IT would be a great route. More on this later.
I actually have good credit and drive an old honda that's reliable, with little bills and I never defaulted on my loans but my issue is I can't make money for shit and I'm going crazy. I kinda wanna run away like a teenager and start life over LOL, I really want to do this...
This is very good. Having good credit such as 700+, opens up numerous other opportunities for you. I believe that you can and have been making money. You probably just aren't making the kind of money you desire. These ae two different arguements. As I said in my first or second post, running away, especially without a plan will not solve the underlying problems.
For instance IT, I try hard but I'm still pursuing the CCNA, I took dudes class on BGOL last year July and I never passed it yet it's some much information I'm still grasping everything, I'm all fucked up I don't even know what the fuck to do anymore which is why I just wanna run and leave and if I have to stand by a gate all night in Georgia so be it LOL, I just want to feel better and have direction in my life.
As I mentioned earlier, IT is a great path. CCNA is definitely a great entryway. I will refrain from commenting on the BGOLers CCNA class, but I will tell you that you can prepare for the CCNA for free. There are practice exams that you can take that will let you know if you are ready to take the real exam or not.
If you failed the first time, then study more and try again. Think about all of the questions you had difficulty with. You have to know and understand VLANs like the back of your hand. You also must to be able to work in the CLI and perform configurations of switches and routers. If you can not do basic configurations from memory, you are not ready for the exam.
I can point you into the direction of some free options. There are also some really good resources here on BGOL.
Lastly, yes, I personally believe that the CCNA is a more valueable entry IT certification. However, the CompTIA is still valuable and will get you in the door as you continue to earn more certifications.
My father had me on the path to go to NYU, he ruled with an iron first but my mom took me and I ended up dropping out and being all fucked up so he hates her to death but no one can help me and I'm kinda tired.
Your dad just wanted the best for you. Not all dads are nice, but that is not his job. His relationship with your mother is none of your concern. Remember that. Additionally, you dropping out was ultimately your decision, not your mother's.
I just want to accept my faith and disappear somewhere no one knows me and just start over, find a way to survive, or just do it. much easier anywhere than Florida where these houses costing 500k on average.
My brother, you are in control of your fate, whether people know you are not. Besides, Florida is a HUGE state. Every part of Florida is not expemsive. In fact, most parts are still relatively cheap. Consider the panhandle coast between Tallahassee and Panama CIty. Most tourist as well as Floridians have no idea how beautiful that area is.