As A fully grown man I can agree with almost all the reasons above.. It just simply doesn't make any damn since to me.. I don't knock anyone who does because most of us are just following what we were taught as kids.. Brainwashing from the brainwashed. But when do you grow up and say.. Make it Make Sense? It is actually very hard for people to even see what is really going on. They will defend religion with there life and soul to stay in that mindset. in saying that. it started early for me..
But the 2 most moving things to me was First .... when i was around 8-9 years old I asked the Sunday School teacher about the Dinosaurs not being in the Bible.. He Said I have to get back with you on that. Probably was thinking.. who sent this little smart ass nigga to me. I was in the Gifted and Magnet programs in school so being taught science and history all the time this was a valid question to me. I didn't separate the 2 being science and religion Lol.
Second........Lost 3 family members in the Jonestown Massacre. Including my 12 year old cousin Wayne. We did everything together as kids. He was 1 year older than me.. I even went to The People's Temple Church With Him and His Mother my older Cousin Cheryle.. First time we went I was allowed in because Father(Jim Jones) was not allowing visitors.. Was a night service for some reason. 2nd time I went was on a Sunday but even at 9 or t10 years old being a visitor. I had to sit in a visitors section apart from my family. after the service all the Visitors including myself were lead to a large cafeteria in which here you were reunited with your family members. Then everyone Cafeteria style got there food and ate together. The whole situation was very controlled and structured. Coming from the normal Baptist background this even at my young age was strange as fuck.. The service was a cross between a musical and a lecture.
The time I went when they did not let me or visitors in my cousin and I actually got in a debate because he referred to Jim Jones as God.. Were are about 9 and 10 or maybe 11 years old with him being a year older. I even in my young brainwashed head told him god was in heaven.. but he insisted That Jones was God.. I even at that young age to just get out of the conversation said to my cousin that well he must be God on earth but not the God in heaven.. BGOL think about what I am saying.. This is the mindset they had. His Mother (my older cousin) did not say a thing while this went on as I think it made her very uncomfortable to hear us debate this and I also think that she was not that comfortable being there herself, But was lead into this so called Church (cult) by my Aunt, her mother..
Well to make a long story longer. they all up and left and went to San Francisco and then Finally to Guyana. In the process they sold all there belongings and gave all the proceeds to the (Well we will call it) Church. My aunt even Clipped my Uncle who was a Contractor and built homes for over 40k and gave that also. Think about how much money that was in the 70's. Anyway. once they were in Guyana we basically never heard from them again.. I use to ask my mother where was Wayne and Cheryle at now.. Her answer to me which actually today sometimes gives me a giggle was... with disgust in her voice she said.. I don't know baby some Damn where in Africa or somewhere following that Crazy ass white man around in the Jungle or something like that. She would often say that it was all my aunts fault for getting them kids in that shit. So basically we never really heard nothing until that day it came on the News about the senator being shot and the bodies being found on the compound. I remember very well how the body count keep risen. My young self with all the hope in my heart just kept saying... Run Wayne Just Run
. We were fast kids and he was faster than myself so That was the only hope I had at the time.. Just wanted him to live.. never realized he had no place to go because where was a 12 year old kid suppose to go in the middle of nowhere.
Anyway as I said the body count kept rising. it went from about 300 to 500 to 700 and finally over 900 people dead. The Bodies were all laid out together and if anyone has ever seen the pictures. they were basically all hugged up. and on top of each other.. a lot of the kids were underneath the bodies of the adults. thats why the count kept going on... well at the end of it all. My uncle had to go identify the bodies after they returned to the US. of his Wife Daughter and Grandson. he was able to identify my aunt his Wife and his Daughter but because of the bad decomposition of the smaller children bodies. He was not able to identify my cousin Wayne. My cousin is Buried in a mass grave (Memorial) of 412 unidentified and unclaimed Bodies in Evergreen cemetery In Oakland. And to make a sad story even sadder November 18, 1978 the day of the Mass suicide slash Massacre was My Cousins 12th Birthday. yes he died on his birthday.
I really very seldom tell this story but as I get older I think it is ok to share it now and maybe some of our people if not all people maybe can really see what Religion is.. its people control..
No Niggas don't hit me with the Colin Because I think this story needed to be shared and this is actually a short version of the things that Happened. Thanks to anyone that got this Far fam!!
But the 2 most moving things to me was First .... when i was around 8-9 years old I asked the Sunday School teacher about the Dinosaurs not being in the Bible.. He Said I have to get back with you on that. Probably was thinking.. who sent this little smart ass nigga to me. I was in the Gifted and Magnet programs in school so being taught science and history all the time this was a valid question to me. I didn't separate the 2 being science and religion Lol.
Second........Lost 3 family members in the Jonestown Massacre. Including my 12 year old cousin Wayne. We did everything together as kids. He was 1 year older than me.. I even went to The People's Temple Church With Him and His Mother my older Cousin Cheryle.. First time we went I was allowed in because Father(Jim Jones) was not allowing visitors.. Was a night service for some reason. 2nd time I went was on a Sunday but even at 9 or t10 years old being a visitor. I had to sit in a visitors section apart from my family. after the service all the Visitors including myself were lead to a large cafeteria in which here you were reunited with your family members. Then everyone Cafeteria style got there food and ate together. The whole situation was very controlled and structured. Coming from the normal Baptist background this even at my young age was strange as fuck.. The service was a cross between a musical and a lecture.
The time I went when they did not let me or visitors in my cousin and I actually got in a debate because he referred to Jim Jones as God.. Were are about 9 and 10 or maybe 11 years old with him being a year older. I even in my young brainwashed head told him god was in heaven.. but he insisted That Jones was God.. I even at that young age to just get out of the conversation said to my cousin that well he must be God on earth but not the God in heaven.. BGOL think about what I am saying.. This is the mindset they had. His Mother (my older cousin) did not say a thing while this went on as I think it made her very uncomfortable to hear us debate this and I also think that she was not that comfortable being there herself, But was lead into this so called Church (cult) by my Aunt, her mother..
Well to make a long story longer. they all up and left and went to San Francisco and then Finally to Guyana. In the process they sold all there belongings and gave all the proceeds to the (Well we will call it) Church. My aunt even Clipped my Uncle who was a Contractor and built homes for over 40k and gave that also. Think about how much money that was in the 70's. Anyway. once they were in Guyana we basically never heard from them again.. I use to ask my mother where was Wayne and Cheryle at now.. Her answer to me which actually today sometimes gives me a giggle was... with disgust in her voice she said.. I don't know baby some Damn where in Africa or somewhere following that Crazy ass white man around in the Jungle or something like that. She would often say that it was all my aunts fault for getting them kids in that shit. So basically we never really heard nothing until that day it came on the News about the senator being shot and the bodies being found on the compound. I remember very well how the body count keep risen. My young self with all the hope in my heart just kept saying... Run Wayne Just Run
. We were fast kids and he was faster than myself so That was the only hope I had at the time.. Just wanted him to live.. never realized he had no place to go because where was a 12 year old kid suppose to go in the middle of nowhere.
Anyway as I said the body count kept rising. it went from about 300 to 500 to 700 and finally over 900 people dead. The Bodies were all laid out together and if anyone has ever seen the pictures. they were basically all hugged up. and on top of each other.. a lot of the kids were underneath the bodies of the adults. thats why the count kept going on... well at the end of it all. My uncle had to go identify the bodies after they returned to the US. of his Wife Daughter and Grandson. he was able to identify my aunt his Wife and his Daughter but because of the bad decomposition of the smaller children bodies. He was not able to identify my cousin Wayne. My cousin is Buried in a mass grave (Memorial) of 412 unidentified and unclaimed Bodies in Evergreen cemetery In Oakland. And to make a sad story even sadder November 18, 1978 the day of the Mass suicide slash Massacre was My Cousins 12th Birthday. yes he died on his birthday.
I really very seldom tell this story but as I get older I think it is ok to share it now and maybe some of our people if not all people maybe can really see what Religion is.. its people control..
No Niggas don't hit me with the Colin Because I think this story needed to be shared and this is actually a short version of the things that Happened. Thanks to anyone that got this Far fam!!
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